In my Ideas of March post I said I had about 20 drafts, but on checking it seems I was underestimating; I have 26, the oldest being from April 11 2008, almost three years old. Why do so many of the posts I start end up sitting there unpublished? At the suggestion of andyc, I'm trying to see if there's a pattern or patterns.

Most of the drafts are simply a heading with a few jotted thoughts hinting what the post was going to be about. Some are about technical topics, some are about my experience as a user and observer of the Web and web software, and others are completely non-technical. So these are my unfinished posts, from most recent to oldest.

Lithium and continuous integration

Describing how to set up continuous integration for Lithium applications, using the junit plugin I wrote. Our work set up is pretty specific, so I wanted to whittle this down to something more generic, with wider applicability. Requires commitment.

The Farm

We disappear to the farm on a regular basis, and it's where I'm writing this post from. I wanted to include photos and I don't have a good photo-oriented workflow.

From Firefox to Chrome

When I switched to Chrome, I planned the obligatory switch post; what I like and what I miss.

Web framework routing

A discussion of the different routing philosophies employed by web frameworks. Lots of research required.

On PhD supervision

So many research candidates talk about problems with their supervisors, and I wanted to talk about how awesome mine have been. But I got bored talking about my PhD.

The spawn of PageRank

PageRank has been hugely influential, and when researchers come up with anything to do with graph traversal they tend to call it BlahRank. Lost interest.

Scott Leslie: What is the most “successful” “formal” “OER” project?

No idea. I started with a quote from Scott Leslie and then said, "When I started my PhD, I wanted to ..." what? Not do my PhD?

Uvumi: low sound, rumbling noise, murmur, or hum

My ongoing search for a decent music discovery service. I was hopeful about Uvumi but gave up on it, for a variety of reasons. Unlike other services I tried, these were actually nice folk, and I decided I didn't want to say anything bad about them.

An android or an apple

I'm due for a new phone, and a smartphone of some kind is the obvious choice for me. I want to support Android an iPhone is likely to Just Work.

The philosophy of Habari at LUV

I gave a talk about Habari at Linux Users Victoria. I was going to write it up and link to the video, when they published it, but the video was never released.

Time for some respect, for asylum seekers, for the Australian public

I'm disgusted by the amount of misinformation spread about asylum seekers who come to Australia by boat, the overwhelming majority of whom are found to be genuine refugees. I had a link to some sobering statistics from Amnesty International, but the link is dead now.

Searching for Just Right HTML and CSS editors Part One

Rachel was looking at learning HTML and CSS, and I was going to evaluate a variety of tools for her. Part One was going to be a description of needs, and Part Two was going to be the evaluation. She lost interest, and therefore so did I.

Simple gallery plugin for Habari

A description of a plugin I wrote for Habari, but I wanted to improve the plugin before I wrote about it, and just never got around to it.

Weka in JRuby

For my PhD, I used the Weka Machine Learning Toolkit, but to avoid writing any Java I ran it on JRuby. To help others do the same thing, I was going to translate the Java tutorial to JRuby, pointing out a couple of issues that tripped me up. But again, I got bored of my PhD.

Publishing with Habari

I think this was another go at writing up the LUV talk.

Encouraging Flow

This seems to be a copy and paste of a Tim Bray post to which I was going to add my own flow tips. Seems I only came up with "don't wear shoes" before giving up. I must have been in the flow.

Talking to famous people

I bought Mark Dapin's book, Strange Country, and I wanted to send him a notice or tweet saying, "I bought your book today. It has very large print," but he didn't have a microblogging account. Pithy stuff, can't imagine why I didn't finish that one.

Australia's 'Clean Feed' is bad policy

Ugh. A rant about Stephen Conroy's misguided clean feed push. Technically bad, economically bad, and bad social policy. I wanted to add to the debate, which meant linking to lots of sources, and I ran out of steam.

Setting up a new Mac

When we got burgled, I lost my MacBook Pro, and this was to record all the things I do in setting up a new machine. I kept finding new things I needed to set up and install, and then the post got stale.

Subversion and Trac on a slice Part I

I gave up on setting up Trac on the slice.

Developers benefit from open source

I only have the title, but I think this was going to be a discussion about how good working on open source projects is for developers.

Most tags suck

An embryonic rant about the suckiness of most tagging interfaces.

Standardisation == death of innovation

Some bloke who was building some service that never launched was claiming that because there hasn't been much innovation in the realm of email, standardisation is inherently bad. I think he's full of crap. This was going to be a wide-ranging post in which I interviewed Important Folks on the Web about the benefits and risks of standardisation. Too much work for me at the time.

Twitter has accomplished crowd search, except they haven't

A couple of years ago there was all this buzz about Twitter being the solution to real time search. I was calling bullshit on behalf of all those thousands of users with virtually no followers (for instance, me).

Testing thumbshots

Another post inspired by andyc, this time about implementing a thumbshot view of blog archives. I might have written it if I'd actually done that implementation.

The Web as helpdesk

Musing about organisations that actually engage on the Web, to the benefit of their customers or users. I got bored.

So I don't finish posts when they sit too long, or when I get bored, or when they require lots of background work, and the world is probably a better place for the lack. At some point, I'll get around to writing the more recent posts, I hope, but for now I should just go and delete a bunch of drafts.

Chris Shiflett laments the demise of blogging, placing the blame mostly on Twitter, because throwing out 140 character remarks is so much easier than sitting down and crafting a blog post.

I've blogged less in the last year as well, but I can't blame Twitter or Identica, my microblogging platform of choice. I'm going to blame the slightly younger and less grey me who decided that doing a PhD was a good idea, or at least an idea from which I shouldn't run screaming. The further I got into writing the big essay, the less creative I felt, and my writing on this blog almost completely stopped.

The timing of Chris' #ideasofmarch call to keyboards coincides with my desire to re-engage writing. I've got about 20 draft posts lying around, and while I'm not going to make a pledge, I would like to actually finish some of those.

I like blogging because I'm contributing to my space on the internet, because writing blog posts allows me to clarify my thoughts and to practice writing, and because helping to write the software running this site lets me poke around in the wonderful and fascinating wide world of the web.

And unless you're a bank or an airline, I'll never mention it again.

A nice tip from Nate yesterday on #li3 IRC. If you want to know the actual queries that Lithium issues, you can use a filter to dump them.

Connections::get("default")->applyFilter(
  "_execute",
  function($self, $params, $chain) {
    var_dump($params['sql']);
    return $chain->next($self, $params, $chain);
  }
);

That's my thesis in the toaster. Burn, baby, burn.

With the risk of turning this blog into a research whinge-fest ....

I'm working on my completion seminar. That means I'm really close to done with this whole PhD journey, and I should be feeling happy and bouncy and joyful about the prospect of prattling on about what I've achieved over these last mumble years. But I don't.

I've learnt an enormous amount about lots of things during my candidature: technical things, computer science theory, research practice, critical thinking, statistics, writing, personal things like my tendency to procrastinate, and about my capacity to follow things through. I am proud to have managed to follow this through, and to have a complete thesis, and I'm happy to have learnt a great deal.

But here's the reason I don't feel happy and bouncy and joyful: I don't actually feel proud of the work.

Part of the reason is that I'd do everything differently (better) now. I know the PhD is supposed to be training to become a researcher, so by definition I wasn't ready to be a researcher when I was doing much of the work. I list a bunch of contributions in my conclusion, and I think my work matches the illustrated guide to a PhD. I think the thesis is probably good enough to pass.

William Webber, in a comment on another of my navel-gazing research posts, suggests I should wait 15 years for the pride to kick in.

I wonder if this lack of pride is a common feeling for students reaching the end of their candidature.

Standing in the middle of a barn of consumerism, located in the middle of an edifice built in honour of capitalism, situated in the middle of a wasteland dubbed suburbia, I'm trying to buy pants. No, not underwear, though buying those is painful too. Trousers. A casual pair, not shiny, not jeans, not part of a tracksuit, not something artificially faded or crumpled or with shotgun holes in them.

"Those are skinny legs." Oh god, a shop assistant. Weak smile.

"Sorry?" I look down at my legs, which aren't in the least skinny.

"Those pants, skinny legs. Everything has skinny legs this season."

"Not me, I'm afraid. Is there somewhere I can get a leg transplant around here?"

"Sorry?" He looks down at my legs. The smile gets weaker.

"Some people don't have skinny legs. And some people don't like shopping. And some people just want to buy a pair of pants without having their senses beaten into submission by 25 metre tall images of pre-pubescent androgynes wearing makeup applied with heavy machinery. And some people are appalled that men in suits sit around on the 102nd floor dreaming up mechanisms to bring about the Gruen transfer, while waiting for their mail-order Russian brides to ..."

I realised I was waving my arms, just a bit. And he was backing away from me, just a bit.

"I don't like shopping."

I wandered off to find Rachel. Women like shopping more, you see. She was standing by the railing, looking down on the swarming crowd of shoppers on the ground floor.

She looked at me and said, "I think I'm going to kill someone."

Research from the US Department of Education suggests that students studying online tend to outperform those receiving face-to-face tuition; The Open University in the UK has topped 20 million downloads on iTunes U; and, worldwide, social media has overtaken pornography as the number one activity on the web.

However, recent statistics from the US show that the academy may be failing to capitalise on the potential offered by new technology.

Times Higher Education - Students 'let down' by the academic Luddites

I'm sure this trend isn't confined to the US. The article goes on to say that academics are short on time, and aren't able to commit the time required to learn about new technologies because it impacts upon their other scholarly activities.

But place-based education is likely to be less important in the future. Sooner or later, there will be a new generation of academics who won't have to take time out from other scholarly activities to learn about social media and technology in general. Will that be too late for some non-sandstone bricks and mortar higher education institutions? There will be other pressures of course, but the answer is, undoubtedly, yes.

My first post to Twitter was on 6 October, 2007.

Excel and Ruby

michaeltwofish

Goodness knows what I was doing with Ruby and Excel. I think it was something to do with trying to automatically process grades submitted by our African partners in the education project I was working on.

My first post to identi.ca was on 4 July, 2008, soon after it was publicly announced.

Hanging out on #laconica.

michaeltwofish

laconica being the IRC channel for the software running identi.ca, since renamed to status.net.

I used Twitter for less than a year, and jumped ship because of ideology and downtime. After joining identi.ca and until recently I only used Twitter to support people doing Habari-related stuff. But recently there's been a critical mass of other interesting non-tech people who are on Twitter, so I've been posting more there, both directly when in conversation and indirectly through identi.ca.

The ideological reasons still exist, and I'd love to see both Twitter become more open and more federated microblogging, but at heart I'm a pragmatist. I think that means andyc would call me a sell out.

When I feel like I'm not making much progress with my PhD, I tell myself that everything I do is progress towards completion. Most of the time that motivates me to do something, anything, to move forward.¹

But if I keep making progress, why aren't I ever finished?

1. "Moving forward" will be one of those phrases that no-one can use without rolling their eyes. Thanks, Julia. ↩